Giraffe cheered me up for a bit.
The boy and I are in a fight I guess, And this feeling sucks. Feeling this bad makes me want him next to me but he’s caused it so I guess that would be counterproductive. 
Also my dad said he’s gonna cancel the insurance. “not worth it” I want to stay angry because if I let it get me sad I’m gonna have a panic attack. My biggest fear is getting sick again. Less than a year since I was in the ICU. I downplay my stay but I almost didn’t make it out. I don’t want to get sick again.
I’ve already started self destructing. 
R

Giraffe cheered me up for a bit.

The boy and I are in a fight I guess, And this feeling sucks. Feeling this bad makes me want him next to me but he’s caused it so I guess that would be counterproductive. 

Also my dad said he’s gonna cancel the insurance. “not worth it” I want to stay angry because if I let it get me sad I’m gonna have a panic attack. My biggest fear is getting sick again. Less than a year since I was in the ICU. I downplay my stay but I almost didn’t make it out. I don’t want to get sick again.

I’ve already started self destructing. 

R